I hate mornings. I can hardly get my body and brain to engage. I used to be a morning person. Not so much now. The challenge of falling asleep manifests itself, in an even greater way, in the morning.
As I try to wake up, the first thing I do is reach for my phone, with the hope that my wake up time is still many hours away. Squint-eyed I try to make out the time. I shower, brush my teeth, get dressed… Coffee…
I have a routine that is forced. A lot of the things, I just have to do. I have many other routines; recurring things. I have rhythms I’m forced to change sometimes because life just happens. Something unexpected, a fuller diary, crises…
It is embarrassing to admit that sometimes I allow important things to become victims of that fuller diary, tired body and other similar things. Unguarded, the things that nourish and sustain me, can be overlooked to my detriment. There are times I’ve placed Bible reading time and prayer on the altar of “busy, tired body, emergency” and such.
Unless I’m intentional and force the important things such as community with other Christ followers, space for silence and solitude, I suffer. The things that I consistently do build me up or bring me down a particular way.
Christ followers must actively follow, right. Sometimes I’m moving too fast I lose sight of The One I must be following. My thoughts are far from Him. Chasing my priorities ends up becoming a run, away from Jesus. The speed can be deafening and paralysing. I miss His voice and the rest of me is weighed down.
Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly. — Psalm 5:3 (NLT)
Oh, the joys of those who do not follow the advice of the wicked, or stand around with sinners, or join in with mockers. But they delight in the law of the lord , meditating on it day and night. They are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit each season. Their leaves never wither, and they prosper in all they do. — Psalm 1:1-3 (NLT)
Time for me to revise some routines. What I consistently do as a norm strengthens or weakens my (spiritual) health. The result is clear in how my life (I) looks.
I don’t intentionally miss the plot but I have to, intentionally make sure that I am really following Christ. Time to review my routines…