My Routines Build Me Up And Tear Me Down

I hate mornings. I can hardly get my body and brain to engage. I used to be a morning person. Not so much now. The challenge of falling asleep manifests itself, in an even greater way, in the morning. As I try to wake up, the first thing I do is reach for my phone, with the hope that my wake up time is still many hours away. Squint-eyed I try to make out the time. I shower, brush my teeth, get dressed… Coffee… I have a routine that is forced. A lot of the things, I just have to do. I have many other routines; recurring things. I have Continue Reading [...]

Answers | Prayer Rehab

I Am Jonah, this blog is also, in some way, a journal of how I’m learning to follow Jesus again. Part of it is about chronicling the tension between what God wants of, in and through me. Lately, it seems God is putting me through prayer rehab. Reclaiming an appreciation of prayer and its significance. Sometimes it is not that I or we don’t know anything. It is not that we have forgotten but we need reminders. We need renewed perspective, vision, and passion. A renewed sense of weightiness… It seems, at least for me, God always takes me Continue Reading [...]

More Than A Combination Of Twenty Six Letters

I borrowed the tittle of this post from Mark Batterson's book, "In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day". What I will share with you in this post is about something that struck a great chord in me. Particularly also due to my earlier post, More, Deeper Than A Craft. I get this from Mark who got it from Ted Loder's book, "Guerillas of Grace". It is about how prayer is way more than what we have reduced it to. May it resonate with you, the way it has with me: How shall I pray? Are tears prayers, Lord? Are screams prayers, Or groans or sighs or Continue Reading [...]

Fear Of Missing “God’s Purpose For My Life”

I lived with the fear of "missing God's purpose for my life". In fact, my teens were torture. I was more scared of "missing God's purpose for my life" than I was obsessed with "finding it". What if I God didn't tell me what He put me on the earth for? What if He is saying it and I'm just too dumb to get it? It is like everyone but me knew what God put him or her on the earth for. They had a clear picture. All I had, and still have, is the sense that there is something 'great' (whatever that means) that God has for and through my life. I'm sometimes Continue Reading [...]

Seeking HIM and NOT Finding

There are times that I spend some time reading the Bible in trying to know God. Trying to understand God… Trying to figure Him out a little better than the last time. I try to listen to His voice. It is settled in my mind, and heart that God does speak. It sometimes takes me a while to hear Him speaking because He also speaks in ways that I don't expect. In ways I don't prefer, in some cases. I would prefer He used billboards. I wish He would pull some stunts from the Bible… Maybe send an angel so that I know beyond the shadow of any doubt Continue Reading [...]