Demeaning Assignments God Gives Me

I've met many people with crazy, insane stories about how they encountered God. I've also heard many stories about how people have seen visions and got "a word from God" in some fireworks-spectacular-way. I get jealous, sometimes. Why can't God speak to me like He did or does with others? Something else that also kinda messes me up is how God seems to let others do cooler stuff than me. I'm not saying He shouldn't have given some assignments to other people. I just wish He'd spread out some of those assignments to me too. It's almost as if other Continue Reading [...]

Not Talking To The Guy Next To Me In Church

Church, rather the worship at church, is about to start. The countdown on the large screen is ticking too slowly for me. Every ticking second is excruciating and can't pass fast enough so I can get over the awkwardness with the guy sitting next to me. We've just mumbled something to each other. Wait, did we just pretend to exchange greetings? Not really. I think we wanted to greet each other but weren't sure what made an appropriate greeting. It's the first time we've sat next to each other in church. I'm thinking, "should I take the conversation Continue Reading [...]

Fixing People

There's always something about an encounter with God that makes us better. That awakens us to meaningful lives. Having an excitement about the future is one of the fruits of God encounters. Too many to mention… God's assignments help me see how depraved I am. It also makes me aware of others' needs. However, there are times I think God sends me to "fix people". How sad. I can't even fix my own life. I need God for that. Deviating from exactly what God sends me to do often results in frustration. One of the reasons for frustration is either Continue Reading [...]

Running

Movement can be deceiving. Sometimes I think my activity is synonymous with movement toward God. The truth is, I don't always run to Him. Sometimes I run from Him. I'm embarrassed to admit that I do it intentionally sometimes. At other times my life is too clouded and my thoughts too cluttered for me to discern. I sometimes realise that I have been running from Him when peace and purpose evade me. Running from God always costs me something. I pay the price unawares and sometimes not only knowingly but willingly. It is easy to know and at Continue Reading [...]