On Being “A Child Of God”

When I was little boy one of the biggest fights I had with my friends was not wanting to play outside. I hated the sandpit. I never saw the point of the sandpit. You played with sand and got dirty; why would I want that?!  I made up for it with fascination with other things. I used to steal mom’s wire coat hangers and make car wires and stuff. Other memories; the world through the eyes of a little boy... Dad was a giant. Because he could open the ketchup bottles and jam jars mom couldn’t, I’m sure he could stop a car with his pinkie finger. Continue Reading [...]

My Routines Build Me Up And Tear Me Down

I hate mornings. I can hardly get my body and brain to engage. I used to be a morning person. Not so much now. The challenge of falling asleep manifests itself, in an even greater way, in the morning. As I try to wake up, the first thing I do is reach for my phone, with the hope that my wake up time is still many hours away. Squint-eyed I try to make out the time. I shower, brush my teeth, get dressed… Coffee… I have a routine that is forced. A lot of the things, I just have to do. I have many other routines; recurring things. I have Continue Reading [...]

Forgetting How To Pray

I think a lot. A lot about how I live is internal. I'm neither extroverted nor introverted. I'm one of those guys who are half and half. Because I think a lot, a lot of what happens to me is internal. Sometimes I over think things. I've always been this way, as long as my memory serves me. I don't fight it. I've learned how to make that work for me. (Writing is one of the ways I've explored to help me process things.) This morning, as I took as walk along the coast I realised how much I had redirected some of my 'prayer energy' or focus to Continue Reading [...]

Answers | Prayer Rehab

I Am Jonah, this blog is also, in some way, a journal of how I’m learning to follow Jesus again. Part of it is about chronicling the tension between what God wants of, in and through me. Lately, it seems God is putting me through prayer rehab. Reclaiming an appreciation of prayer and its significance. Sometimes it is not that I or we don’t know anything. It is not that we have forgotten but we need reminders. We need renewed perspective, vision, and passion. A renewed sense of weightiness… It seems, at least for me, God always takes me Continue Reading [...]

More Than A Combination Of Twenty Six Letters

I borrowed the tittle of this post from Mark Batterson's book, "In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day". What I will share with you in this post is about something that struck a great chord in me. Particularly also due to my earlier post, More, Deeper Than A Craft. I get this from Mark who got it from Ted Loder's book, "Guerillas of Grace". It is about how prayer is way more than what we have reduced it to. May it resonate with you, the way it has with me: How shall I pray? Are tears prayers, Lord? Are screams prayers, Or groans or sighs or Continue Reading [...]

OK To Struggle With God, But In God

OK To Struggle With God, But In God
It is not always easy being vulnerable about struggles with myself in relating to God and what He expects of me. I wish I was super spiritual. The thing is, growing up as a Christian there were times I was made to believe that the more you matured spiritually the less you struggled with stuff. That you were impervious to temptation and unChrist-like behavior. I wish I knew earlier that it was OK, fine, to struggle with stuff. I'm not saying that it is fine to give into temptation but that temptation and other struggles of being a Christ follower Continue Reading [...]

Seeking HIM and NOT Finding

There are times that I spend some time reading the Bible in trying to know God. Trying to understand God… Trying to figure Him out a little better than the last time. I try to listen to His voice. It is settled in my mind, and heart that God does speak. It sometimes takes me a while to hear Him speaking because He also speaks in ways that I don't expect. In ways I don't prefer, in some cases. I would prefer He used billboards. I wish He would pull some stunts from the Bible… Maybe send an angel so that I know beyond the shadow of any doubt Continue Reading [...]