It’s easy to misread this. I mean you can actually think that it means God’s mercy is withdrawn once your back is turned to Him.
God’s offer still stands even if all it looks at is your back. I’m glad I understand this now. At some point I was made to believe that I could do that one thing that becomes the final nail in my fate, having God shun me forever.
Another thing to note, there are times I’ve thought God had turned His back on me. On the contrary, I’m the one who often shifts my focus. I sometimes don’t want to take responsibility when “God feels so distant”.
It is the things that I worship that affect my view of God. By worship, I mean the things that I give time to. The things that I allow to captivate and to command my attention.
By worship I mean things that I sacrifice for. Those things I go the extra mile for. My obsessions. This blog. My other blog. My sports team. It is the things I spend time and money on.
It is things that I go out of my way to make sure I have access to them. The Internets? Maybe.
There is nothing wrong with having interests. It is the order of my pursuits of them in relation to God. That is what I sometimes struggle with. It is giving each aspect and interest in my life the attention it deserves. Worship of God is, well I’m sure you’ve got an idea by now…
What kind of attention does God deserve in my life? There are times I’ve also missed the point; thinking that if God got his hour in the morning in prayer and reading the Bible then I had Him in sight.
That wasn’t, isn’t the case. It is about having in sight all the time. It is about Him filling every part of my life and not just a slot in my diary.
I need to keep God in perspective. I must remember in those instances I mess up. In the times I fail. In those times He feels distant:
It is not that hope, God’s mercy and everything that He is and comes from Him are withdrawn; it is that I ignore them.
That has often been the case for me.
Ignoring God or anything that He offers doesn’t make God withdraw the offer. Having my back turned to God miss