It scares me how careful I can be in “crafting” ‘my prayer’ to God. I mean, prayer is a critical part of the lifeline of any Christ follower. It is something I must not only do, but do well.
Sometimes I get caught up wanting my prayer to be “perfect”. I want to make sure that God doesn’t misunderstand me. Yeah, you read that right. As if it was possible that God could misconstrue my carefully crafted utterances. I can’t believe I can be that dumb.
It gets worse. I sometimes envy other people’s prayer lives. I mean I get motivated, then jealous, sad and depressed as I compare my “prayer life” to others’. How dumb.
How dare I even make prayer about me?! Can we be so depraved that we can take something sacred, a communion with Divinity and reduce it to a skill we compare with others?! Help us, no, help me, Jesus.
Perhaps one of the reasons I end up going down this road is that I think God will act based on the quality of my prayer to Him. “Quality of prayer?”. What the heck is “quality of prayer” anyways?
God loves earnestness in prayer, way more than craftiness. How do I forget that? [Click to Tweet]
I think “quality of prayer” is a man created standard. It keeps new Christ followers from feeling worthy to seek an audience with God. To speak to Him and hear Him speak to them. I fall in that trap.
I’ve been a Christ follower for over twenty years but I sometimes feel like I’ve only started following recently. This is because in many ways I’m still learning. Yearning. Growing.
I sometimes forget that it is not the “quality of ‘my prayers'” but that I pray that matters [Click to Tweet]
God, I pray that we be liberated from trying to perfect in the way we communicate with you. Help me to be secure in communicating with You being enough. May how I communicate be only secondary, even irrelevant, but that I am present and focused on You when I do so. Help me, I Am Jonah.
Check out the follow-up post “More Than A Combination Of Twenty Six Letters”
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